Greetings brethren and sistren.
I hope this can give you all insight into a small detail of where I came from in this great controversy and I pray that the telling of my journey will help some of you readers possibly join the fold.. May God and Jesus Christ be with you always. I dedicate this blog to all the little children (all of you readers out there) that have lost their paradise to the world, and regained their purity through the everlasting blessings and lovingkindness of Yahweh. Let Him be your guiding through this abysmal darkness.
DISCLAIMER: PARENTS, MONITOR YOUR CHILDREN AND THEIR USAGE WITH ALL FORMS OF MEDIA. THERE ARE UNIMAGINABLE FORMS OF HORROR AND TERROR FOUND EVERYWHERE AND THEY KNOW WHERE TO LOOK. YOUR KIDS ARE SMARTER THAN YOU. THIS IS NOT A JOKE. TAKE BACK YOUR ROLE AS PARENTS. I WARN YOU ALL OUT OF MY LOVE FOR YOUR SOULS, AS WELL AS FOR ALL OF THE PRECIOUS CHILDREN EVERYWHERE.
DO NOT ALLOW THEIR PARADISE TO BE LOST.
Throughout my childhood,
I of course was not aware of the evil, unclean agents of Satan weaving their abominable machinations through me, but I was aware of the blasphemous and sinful works I had been committing. Many years I spent behind closed doors and in the shadows of the abyss trying and wanting to conceal my sins. The curiosity of a child with no true foundation in God is a sure way to find that child engulfed in darkness. Paradise lost. The wonders and imaginations that a child’s mind can create can be a beautiful place, the preferred location to instill the works of God is on the pure heart of a child.
What if the purity is actually taken away by curiosity? Satan takes the wheel and reigns filth upon the child’s heart from every direction. Too easy a task for the prince of evil. It is no surprise that I became the person I was for so long in my life. There was no shame. The jezebel spirit found in the workings of man’s boundless wickedness, through pornography in magazines, in movies, on the television in this day and age, and the most intense case being the internet…it was all a device to chain my soul to utter depravity, and I spent the first quarter of my life and some years to follow defiling my flesh and corrupting my soul to no end. Porn was literally hidden in every form of media all throughout my childhood home. Innocence stolen from me at age 6. It was no longer Satan and his agents to blame for these transgressions, but my own will was to blame. I wanted to take part in these things. It was a lust of the flesh driving me to spend large amounts of money on perversion. The wicked one planted a virus, a sick spiritual disease in my heart while I was in the womb, and by the time in my life when I discovered morality, and choosing right from wrong, I always chose wrong. I always chose immorality.
A vision came to me during my childhood, probably around the age of 9. This was one of the first encounters with the terrors of my mind and of my heart. I found myself being on the receiving end of many nights like this. Shadows terrified me, and I couldn’t sleep some nights. A horrible combination. I mostly hid under the covers. I had welcomed demons inside my psyche at an early age.
I beheld myself standing on a mass of land floating above a seemingly endless body of water, which was green murky water, not fit for contact with human flesh. Moving throughout the water was a beast of marvelous size, a leviathan with the head of a dragon and the body of a serpent, countless numbers of limbs and fins extended from its body, the imagery comparable to a centipede. It was repulsive. As I turned to look away from the beast, I noticed a land of desolate dwellings and structures, decrepit in appearance, and it seemed as though there was no life among them. As I journeyed through this land, moving only as fast as the vision allowed me, I encountered two individuals of elderly appearance, except on the head where faces should’ve been, there were only mouths that were of darkness when they spoke, and the remainder of them was void of details. A male and female. I can’t recall hearing many words, but I do remember being told that I wasn’t wanted here. They immediately began to pursue me. No matter their elderly stature, no matter how fast I moved, they were always behind me. Never ceasing to make me feel what they had intended for me to feel. Unimaginable fear with no escape. The vision ended when they captured me and threw me from the land mass into the water from so high above. I awoke falling from my bunk bed as I hit my head on the desk below. I also pissed on myself.
The dreams and visions that have came upon me are always of great details, and all too realistic, I sometimes thought I would surely die in my sleep. I know now that something dark was living down in my heart, and this thing that should not be was determined to extinguish my light eternally. A tormented, tortured soul I was spiritually. I was unaware of the events transpiring within my being. It wasn’t an agent of the wicked one, but Satan himself had taken his personal possession of my subconscious and my mortal shell. I was doomed from the very beginning. The devil and God were raging inside of me.
We must all fight the good fight, for Satan has stolen from all of us. The monster robs the cradles. No longer can we allow him to afflict us. Not as long as the will of God makes us able. Bury your guns in the sand, for they are the inventions of man. Take up instead the mighty arms of God. We are all in the midst of a spiritual warfare, instruments of death created by fleshly men are to no success in this fight. How can you kill that which you cannot see? If a man threatens your life, you will either choose God’s will to be done, or you will resist evil and lean on your own understanding, what path do you choose? The devil and God are raging inside all of us.
May the grace, peace, and love from God our Father, Lord Jehovah, and Jesus Christ our Lord, Yeshua the King of kings. He is risen.
Little children, keep yourselves from idols.